Back in Black

Wow...its been forever since I last wrote in this blog! I will try to write in here more often!! Its been the craziest of summers, but I will get into more of that some other time.

Single life has been real good lately. I mean, im not gonna lie...but it does get pretty lonely especially when your best friend is romantically involved with someone you hang out with everyday. This is what I wanted though, I want to be single, especially after everything I have been through this past year, its definitely the right thing for me to do. I need to focus on myself and reinvent myself.Im excited to do so too!! I have so many ideas and plans accumulated in my head! I might write about them later. I think the whole moving back to california situation will really help with that and I honestly cannot be more excited to move back! My friend Kaylee offered to move in with me since she is currently living in Santa Cruz, also my friend Kelsey is moving down there as well so it should be amazing!

I dont know if I mentioned this before but Im also thinking about changing my major (yes, again). My parents are building a custom made house and I have been really involved in the whole architechtual aspect of it. The blueprints, the designing, the engineering...everything. Its incredibly interesting and it even inspired me to want to change my major to that...but its not for sure yet. I would love to...but we will see I guess.

Other than that...I have a graduation party to go to next week and im getting my dress fitted right now. So excited! Its the sexiest dress I have ever owned. Its one of those super low v cut dresses where you cant even wear a bra. Yeah, its adorable!

Nossa Senhora!

so...I probably have the swine flu, who really knows. All I know is that I feel like shit and that I have flu like symptoms...whether its really the flu or not is not yet known. I slept all day today on my grandmas huge ass comfy bed! At around 5 all the portuguese families here in Puerto Cabello went to church together to celebrate the Virgin Mary of fatima. Its Portugal's own little Virgin Mary that they have going on. Her story is so beautiful. I know a lot of people arent religious, but the story really is beautiful and I love how it brings people together a couple times a year. I grew up with all of these people who I rarely get to see anymore because we have all grown up so much so getting to see them is always so fun! Getting to dress up and hang out together to celebrate something so wonderful is amazing in my opinion. I dont really care what people have to say about religion. Its not something you can prove right or wrong and for me its mostly about whats within me and what I choose to believe in. Being Catholic doesnt mean I have to shoot down anyone who disagrees or believes something different, and it doesnt mean I have to follow all the "rules" of the religion. Its all up to me and what I find best fits my life and my beliefs. You can be incredibly proud to be Jewish and that awesome, infact I love that even more. I love how people are proud to be what they are. Whats the point in trying to find all of the correct answers when you will never ever ever ever ever find them? Instead I choose to believe something so much more than anything imaginable and I love it. I think thats really great. I also kind of find it offensive when people who are so against religion celebrate MY holidays like Christmas and Easter etc. If you hate and disagree with religion so much dont run around celebrating something that is based off of it, youre just mocking what I believe in and quite frankly I find it kind of annoying. I dont go around celebrating Hanukkah because its about "giving" and "family". I guess there is no point in arguing about it now since its something that America has ruined all on its own. I just find it really hypocritical. Anyways, we have another church sesh on Sunday and that day we are also having a party for her! yay I cant wait! I have always loved Virgen de Fatima. I have a little statue figure of her and the three kid pastors and I swear I cherish and adore that little thing more than life itself. Infact the crown on the back of my neck is the crown she wears, which also happens to be the crown on the Portuguese coat of arms!! yay for being incredibly proud of my heritage as always! The down side of tonight was seeing my prissy ass cousin Carolina who refuses to talk to me because she thinks shes just the hottest shit in town. How annoying are those people? People whos self esteem are so high that you want to slap them back to earth and remind them that they are normal ass human beings like the rest of us. Most of the people who have that high of self esteem have no reason to anyways. Being vain for no reason is ugly. Just FYI. Ahh im being so negative...I swear its the sickness :(

I also need this ring in my life A fucking SAP!
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My birthday is in 3 months (August 17th....) so if any of you lovely people want to get that for me I will probably give give you my soul.

I also update way too much...yikes.

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I had a terrible migraine earlier (surprise surprise) and fell at sleep at 7. Now I have awakened and I cant seem to fall back into that amazing slumber. I was supposed to have a date with Nick today (online sadly) because hes going through a rough time and I want to be there for him, but my migraines do take over my life, as sad as that is. It sucks because whenever I feel one coming I have to instantly drop everything and proceed to a dark room with no noise and nothing that will bother me. I think my grandma is making me and eye appointment tomorrow to see if maybe thats whats been triggering them. I used to care if I had glasses mostly because I always bragged about how perfect my vision was...but being on the computer, reading and tv and shit has really taken a toll I think. Its either that or my amazing bad sight genes are starting to sneak up. Oh well, Im sure ill look sexy in glasses anyways hahha.

I quit my job yesterday. I really couldnt stand the people I worked with, and usually thats ok because there is always going to be someone you dont get along with. However, there was way too much negativity to handle for a summer job, you really dont notice how other peoples bad attitudes affect your work until you have to deal with so many of them at a time, and homegirl had no chin, therefore making it hard to look at her whenever I had to. bahhahh im horrible, but really this girl deservers it. At least I still have one other awesome job and now I can enroll is some cool classes. Im definitely taking Portuguese to perfect my language. Its really the most beautiful language out there and I heard it was one of the hardest in the world to learn. It makes me so damn proud to be Portuguese. Luis and my bro are taking it with me in the city so that should be a lot of fun. Im also thinking about either taking Tennis or salsa dancing. Tennis because I naturally kick ass at it. I never played it anywhere else but school and when I did I just dominated everyone. I really love it too! Its so fast paced and you get the best work out ever. I also want to do salsa dancing because dancing is my passion. Salsa dancing is also incredible sexy too, and im all for sexy! I heard that was the new hip thing to do here so I might as well try it out. I know I'll love it! Im really keen on taking an artsy class though because those never get old. Ive done quite a few here and they have all taught me an absurd amount of stuff and I even have some of my work displayed! I still have time to think about it I guess since everything starts Jun 1st. So if anyone has any ideas let me knowwwww.

I started doing cardio work outs to Billy Blanks dvds and let me tell you...Billy can sure kick my ass...and hard. I felt so incredibly amazing afterwards though, and I cant WAIT to do it again tomorrow morning and looking fly for when my new swim suit comes it! I got one custom made and its a strapless kind!! I have always been iffy about those do to my naturally smaller chest, but I got all my measurements down and I really think its going to look good! Im thinking about getting a navy color so it looks good with my hair, but we will see. So far summer has been kind of blah. I miss my cutie Nick though, a lot. Seeing him in such down spirits makes me so sad and it makes it worse that i'm so far away. He is such a smart guy though and I know he will come out of whatever funk he is in and prevail! I have full confidence in him :) I do miss him dearly though. wahhh. Also Mothers day was awesome. I spent the day with momskis, stepdad, bro and grams and we all went to Valencia to eat at the most amazing restaurant called Rodeo Grill! We had this really delish portuguese food that I could honestly have for the rest of my life and be completely content. We then went to play laser tag ( I PLAYED IN HEELS BTW) and we to this awesomely gigantic mall that they have. You can seriously spend an incredible amount of hours there and you still wouldnt have a chance to see everything. I couldnt help but go in the Sanrio store to drool over all of the Hello Kitty stuff. That store should be illegal. Everytime I go in there I end up dying a little because I want EVERYTHING. They had this amaizng Hello Kitty toaster oven that I would die for. I also saw this gigantic hello kitty face pillow. One of those soft ones that you can melt into! My mom said she would buy it for my birthday!! hahaha I cant WAIT to have that huge ass thing sitting on my bed. I think im the ultimate hello kitty fan, honestly I would die to have my whole house just pimped out in Hello Kitty. My grandma is buying me this amazingly cute Hello Kitty jewelry case that has a dancing hello kitty ballerina in it when you open it! Like one of those old school victorian jewelry cases ya know? ahhhhhh SO EXCITED!! Ill post mothers day pictures later though.

Tattoos!

I'm totally using this as my inspiration for my next tattoo. I want it to be a mix of this and Angelina Jolies back tattoo.. therefore I want the words to start on my back shoulder area and wrap back around to my side like Megan fox's. I've had this idea since before I got my first tattoo but its such a big one that I decided to wait a couple years to see if I really wanted it, and 2 years later I still want it! I need to find the perfect words to get done though. I have always had Jason Mraz's lyrics to life is wonderful in the back of my mind because I absolutely love those lyrics and it has nothing to do with my past loves or relationships at all so I wont need to worry about regretting it or anything, but It needs to be absolutely perfect so obviously I need to think about this more so I wont get it done in a long time. I also want to incorporate some flowers, since I'm obsessed with them. Im not sure if I want to get a flower as a whole different tattoo though. I really need to finish my crown tattoo on the back of my neck so I'm going to work on that while I still plan out my big big big one coming up! Actually now that I think about it I kind of want to add to the one on my hip as well, so maybe I will do that too.I cant wait..Its going to be so sexy I can hardly stand it!!

edit: this is exactly what I want except a little more extended and more words...

The Veronicas

Since we are sort of on the topic of fashion, I came across this little gem. Im obsessed with this band called The Veronicas..which consists of two aussie girls, Lisa & Jessica Origliasso. They are pretty well known for their songs "4ever", "Untouched", and "Take me on the floor" (which by the way is their new single, check it outt) and their fabulous stule. Every week, on their website (theveronicas.com) they post style tips, amongst other things and I found this so cute and hilarious. Im pretty obsessed with band and have been since I first heard their song 4ever back in 05 or 06.

2009 MET Ball Gala....

Fashion has always been something I have been very into, thanks to my mom and aunt, although I wouldnt necessarily make it a career or study it in school. I think its mostly because that kind of industry is dirty and cold. Its full of people who have their heads so far up their asses, that they like the smell of their own shit, its kind of like that SF south park episode. I wouldnt want my life to revolve around countless hours of working for something who treats me like shit and makes me feel badly about myself, meanwhile having no family or friends because you have no time, and mostly because people in the industry are so mean and cold that they simply dont care. Maybe its a stereotype, but ive seen it first hand. Im more into being happy with my career and being able to love myself, my body and my job. Its a neat thought, but in the end, its not for me. Needless to say, Im a girl...who loves fashion and clothes. I spend a good amount of time reading fashion magazines and looking stuff up online, so naturally I was very interested in seeing the MET gala pictures. I think its funny how half of these people who went have amazing style, but completely blew it on that day because they wanted to top everyone. I guess that goes to show that when you try too hard, you end up looking like a fool.

Here are my faves and my least faves (please remember, im not an expert...these are just opinions)


Kanye West and Amber Rose killed it! They look absolutely breathtaking! I have always liked them as a couple, they complement each other so well! Amber Rose's dress and skin color contrasts so nicely! Its one of the things ive always liked about being tan...reds and oranges look fabulous on you! Did I mention I envy her ability to rock the bald head?


Heidi Klum kind of disappointed me this time. I was a strong believer that she never fails at looking fashionable, but this Navy Blue J. Mendel dress is a bit tacky. I think its too voluminous, and although she IS pregnant, I dont know if it works. I do, however, love her up do! I think it elongates her neck and makes her look so fresh and naturally flawless (which she is).


Yikes! Way to ruin a beautiful Jason Wu gown by pairing it with a pair of hideous black heals and black tights. If she got rid of those two things, she would have looked amazing! Her hair is also looking a bit rough. Her pink clutch also blows.


ahhh, Blake Lively! Definitely one of my favorite fashionistas! She always looks so chic and yet so her own style, which I admire. I love her Versace dress, despite other critics. I love the slit, the sleeve, the hair, the make up and the shoes. That color especially compliments her very well!


oh jesus, can anyone ever criticize this woman? Look at her! She may be the only one who can rock that Marc Jacobs Asymmetrical frock. Never fails. Although, she should probably stop tanning?


two of my favorite ladies are present in this picture, and both look amazing! Kate Bosthworth is another celebrity I admire. She always looks so classy yet edgy and different. Red lips look good on very very few people, but she rocks it! Liv Tyler, look amazing!! She is such a classy lady, so chic and so flawless. Her Stella McCartney (whom also dressed Kate) is gorgeous. Love the detailing and I love how it looks against her pale skin. Her hair looks amazing as well as her make-up. I love love loooove it. As for the other two, Im just not feeling it. Especially that lacy get up. I mean honestly...being a very successful fashion designer (and one of my faves to follow) you should know how to not wear hideous outfits.


This is one of my top 2 favorites of the night! Im a huge fan of natural, classy beauty. Marion Cotillard looks breathtaking. Her pale pink Dior gown looks very chic with her curls and natural make-up. I admire natural beauty more than any else when it comes to the sort, mostly because its the true meaning of beautiful, anyone can cake makeup on and look good, very few can look this good otherwise. Her look appeals to me so much more! Hands down one of my top favorites.


I cant decide whether I like this or not. One thing I can say though is that I admire the fact that she kept her hair and make-up simple since she already has A LOT going on. Still very chic in my opinion, but when is she not?


One of the things you learn being a small framed girl is that its never ok to make yourself look smaller, which is something MK does ALL THE TIME! its really no wonder people call her a troll...she makes herlsef look stumpy and midget-like. Its a combo of the unnecessary layering and long hair.


Bar Refaeli rocked this look! Very simple yet very bold. Love it.


Kate Moss is one of my biggest fashion icons! I love that woman to death and I dont care what she has done in the past, her style is amazing. However, she let me down big time. This turban and gold gown are not doing it for me. Her make-up looks horrid as well, and to be honest she doesnt even look like herself. Big let down! However, Marc Jacobs looks dashing. I do love Kates Shoes!


ahh yes, A fashion icon of mine that did not let me down! Rachel Bilson looked amazing! The color and cut of her dress is so fierce. This is how short people should do it. Her shoes tie evertything together and makes it her own. Typical Rachel actually, she is known to be very simple with one splash of funk. Love it!


Eva Mendes, always a favorite of mine. Looking very simple yet very Chic in a Calvin Klein gown. Minimal make-up and subtle jewelry.


To be honest, I love this look. Rhianna is known to rock the most obscure outfits and still look extremely chic and gorgeous. I admire any woman who can make mens wear look extremely feminine and she does it all the time. The cropped pants with the shoes are perfect. Hair and make-up look fierce as well. I think she could have lost the gloves though....


No, just no!


eek. Katy Perry never stuns me with her attires. She looks awful. Everything about her look is so god damn awful. Yuck.


Beautiful! Claire Danes never fails to look absolutely gorgeous and classy.


I think this is super fun and flirty. I love her hair and the dress are edgy! I dont particularly like the sleeve though...or the blue bag.


Love this! I looove her wrap around pale pink dress, and I mostly love the black accents. Her shoes are super cute!


You all know my love for Anne Hathaway. She totally rocked it with her Marc Jacobs frock and 80s retro hair.


Yikes, for someone who also always looks flawless, Giselle sure did bomb this one! Nothing about this works.


I will give props to he usually very bland Jessica Biel for her dress and hair/MU...Although im not a HUGE fan of her dress, I think it works, and the color looks good on her. Her hair is very nice and classy along with her shoes! what is UP with JTs glasses? lets not turn into Kanye, Jt.


hands down my favorite look of the night! Iman looks FLAWLESS! The kind of flawless I wish I could be. Her dress falls in all the right places. The cream color of her dress looks amazing gorgeous against her dark skin! Her hair is very classy and beautiful and her jewerly as well. Ahhh she looks amazing for her age!!! I particularly love the top part of her dress. For someone small chested (like myself) its important to have ruffles and volume in that area of your body, it makes everything look proportionate and it makes your body look slim and perfect! Perfect perfect perfect!


Oh Molly Simms....no no noooo, again..trying wayyyy too hard.


ash much as I adore Milla Jovovich, I do not adore this dress. The color is no flattering to her skin color and the detailing is a tad bit silly.


again with the making yourself look smaller attires. Ugh.....at least Ashley keeps it classy without the layers and the cute bob and make-up. She was always the better twin.


yikes....


double yikes....and probably worst dressed, along with Madonna!

Thats all! Now its your turn! Who here follows fashion/is interested in it at all? Who are your favorite designers, fashion icons, trends, looks etc etc....I would love to hear!

Music

http://www.mtv.co.uk/shows/mtv-push/episode/mtv-push-presents-the-veronicas
^ I love those acoustic shows The Veronicas for MTV Push. Lisa's voice in the song "This Love" is incredible!! Im a huge fan of Lisa's voice without it being produced. Make sure to check these out.


In other news, I stole a bunch of music from Nick last night haha. I stole all of his Common Market and Blue Scholars songs as well as all of his Gorillaz music. Im pretty much obsessed with Blue Scholars. Coming from someone who doesnt normally like rap...at all, this shit is amazing. Their lyrics are so powerful and their beats are catchy but still not overly obnoxious. I already have a couple favorite songs; southwest revival, no rest for the weary and sagaba remix. Im a pretty big fan of Common Market too, I remember when Nick and I first started dating he would say that Common Market reminded him of me because it made him smile so much. hahaha what a cheesy thing to say, but still pretty damn cute. :)

My clothes from my shopping spree arrived today. Im still expecting one more from topshop but I dont think that will be coming until tomorrow....I hope.